Doesn't have a good mood today. I must do something to my brain because It run for 24hours per day. Not much people know this blog existed, so I shall post what in my heart feeling.

Wishes
1. How I wish my brain is like the main processor of the CPU. If problems/errors occurred, just reformat it and everything will back to square one.

2. How I wish my life will be carefree like children, live everyday without stress.

3. How I wish people around me don't take me for granted and put themselves in my shoe before they do/talk. It hurts a lots.

4. How I wish I can learn things fast and take things easy. This simply is one of the negative point I have.

Hates
1. Hate to be alone
2. Hate to be treated unfair
3. Hate to be thrown a side
4. Hate the feeling of been kept in the dark
5. Hate to be a Scorpio
6. Hate to be control on certain things

HATE IT HATE IT!! I HATE MY LIFE!!

Thanks god I have a bunch of close friends who is there to for me. They are really true friends of mine. They know my position and know how i feel and know how to handle me. All they do is just listen to me saying my tots.

There's still other friends of mine around me. Thanks for the care you all gave to me. I appreciate it a lot too.

Friends comes and goes in my life. If you wanna stay in my life and be someone special to me. You must gain trust from me and show me what you have. And I will show you what I have.

Love
Yes, I admit I still like her. I don't know why, I really don't know! Even she treat me cold and It hurt me, and it hurt me damn alot. But the feeling I can't explain. Never in my life I have this kinda of feeling. But all I wish for is that she always stay happy. She will remain as someone special in my heart! Never be replace. Even through she attach, It will hurt me fucking damn alot but I still will give her my blessing.

I doesn't know why I typed all these. All this is base on how I feel in my heart right now and typed out. Let me put all my tots and feeling over here and proceed to next day with a more cheerful and happy heart.

RIP Grandma, sorry I was not there to see you the last time before you go. Although due to some family issue that we lost contract for years. But you treated me good when I was young. This will not be erased in my heart.

Every family have their own problems to handle, so do I. I just hope that all my family members will get back together. Laugh and joy together. But things don't seem to be that easy! I won't question much why all these happened. All things happened for a reason. But I hope you all understand I'm old enough to know.

It about 5am soon and I can't get back to sleep. Sigh:(

I love my parents.
Although they does not really talk much to me at home, does not really interrupt my life on who I mixed with, does not question on me how my life (be it in school or outside). I still feel the care and love you all shower on me. It ain't important whether my parent know how to express the love. As long I feel safe like a baby when I'm with my parent. Even when I'm married and start my own family, I promise to take good care of you two when you all get old.

I don't know how to express my love for you all too. So I'm here to write my thoughts that I love you (my family) so so much. There nothing much I can ask for with the family I have now, I pray to god that my family will stay healthy always.

孤獨萬歲
失戀無罪
誰保證一覺醒來有人陪
我對於人性早有預備
還不算太黑

獨身萬歲
失戀無罪
愛不夠愛你的人才受罪
用過去悲傷換來自由
難道不珍貴